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26 January 2015 @ 05:07 pm




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17 December 2008 @ 08:40 pm
code name for the guy: Jaemin

I went to UST today and yes~I saw him (I SAW HIM AS SOON AS I ALIGHTED FROM THE CAR!! GAWD!! of all~meant to be!? I hope not.)...I wasn't planning on telling him that I'm in UST but I did because I figured that he might get mad at me if I don't tell him that I'm in his school and I somehow want to see if he'll go and see me (okay! I'm guilty about that~). It is because before, he told me that he wouldn't go see me even if I'm in his school. I guess, I really did that also to test myself. YES! TEST MYSELF! weird!? no..not really....I just want to know if I still like him and guess what I don't think I like him anymore. Also, I just kinda feel a bit weird around him considering that we call each other bestfriends. WEIRD!? yeah~I know. It is weird. I guess, I just couldn't stand it that some people who were with us knows that I liked him SO MUCH before. But now I don't. But I liked what he did...he stayed in the "pav" even if I don't talk to him. I couldn't help it...I just don't want to talk to him. MEAN!? yes..I think. gawd....I so don't know what to do now...he was really happy when he saw me! or I'm just really stupid that I think he's so happy...but still the same...HE WENT BACK TO HIS SCHOOL JUST CAUSE I TOLD HIM THAT I WAS THERE! gawd I hope he would stop being sweet. He only left when my and my friends have to go already...He was really sleepy but he stayed there until I have to leave. Does that mean something? Or I'm just making a big deal out of it? Or worse, am I wrong about my feelings for him? Do I still like him? Or I'm just glad that I know that someone misses me and would do anything just to see me. 

My friends caught him red handed about the girl that he calls his girlfriend. OKAY NOW IT IS SO OBVIOUS THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE A GIRLFRIEND! AND THAT WHAT HE TOLD TO ME WAS JUST A LIE! A BIG FAT LIE!but I just don't get it why on earth did he do that!? I mean, what is the point of lying to YOUR BESTFRIEND!??!?! were my friends right about him liking me and about me and jaemin having this mutual feeling thing!? I hope not. I really hope that they're wrong. why I hope they're wrong?? I don't know. I couldn't accept that that kind of thing could happen to me?? I really don't know. 

OKAY NEXT STORY...

code name for the guy: Ahyong

My friends were making fun of me by counting the times that I mention Ahyong's name...and guess what~I MENTIONED HIM MORE THAT 15 TIMES!! wth...I guess I like him more that I think. Now, I want him to be mine (selfish much?? yeah...A little~). But that wouldn't happen because first and foremost...he has "a girl" they are not official but still~he has a girl. And just that thought makes my heart ache. I can't even look at them whenever they are near to each other. FUCK! WHY ON EARTH DO I KEEP ON LIKING GUYS THAT COULDN'T BE MINE!! argh! cause why does he have to be so nice at the same time mean to me!? HE MADE ME LIKE HIM! FUCK! ahhh~If only you guys see me and ahyong. Most of my close friends from school say that WE LOOK GOOD TOGETHER! and OUR "FIGHTS" ARE SO CUTE! ADORABLE! ARGH!! WTH!! waaaah~I miss ahyong so much. I don't want 3rd term to start....I want to see him...I want to be sure that I'll see him. I guess, I love him.....I don't know.

Captured-Christian Bautista

I was captured the moment we met

Carried away with every word you said

It's a mystery how you got to me

I fell in the spell of your charms

With your siren's smile you caught me off guard



Just one glance took away my breath

Then you drew me in with your tenderness

You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Keep me here in your happy ever after

I'm captured



By the way just in case you care

I'm here to stay, I'm not going anywhere

I took a dive in your deep dark eyes

And I'm never coming up for air

I lost myself in this bond that we share



One sweet kiss took away my breath

Then you drew me in with your tenderness

You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Hold me tight in your happy ever after



Now you've got the best of me

No one else could hold the key

I'm captured



Just one touch took away my breath

When you drew me in I could not resist

You captivate my soul, I'm enraptured

You knocked me out and you locked me up

Stole my heart like a thief at love

Keep me here in your happy ever after

I'm captured


wondering why I placed this song? ahyong told me to search for this song for him and I think this song is my song for him...

 
 
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26 September 2008 @ 08:55 am

Today is September 26 and it's my birthday!! LMAO!! ALSO...MIROTIC ALBUM IS OUT TODAY!! WOOT WOOT!! 

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